I wanna tell you that I hate you

For ruining the only sweet thing I’ve had

Like birthday cake in July

But you weren’t there and I tried so hard not to cry

I wanna know the things you tell her

Do you say that I’m a bitch who ruined your life?

And what about your dad and your brother?

Bet they hate me now you’ve told them what I’m like.

It was a break in my brain

The ache in the pain that I feel in my veins

I try to lay to rest alongside the worst of the best

Just to take it off my chest

I wanna tell you I stayed up all night

Cos hating you this much has kept me from sleep

I lied in bed dwelling on

The lies you said and promises you didn’t keep

Heartstrings bend

Skin won’t mend

Cos I pick at my wounds til they scar

People leave

But I can’t grieve

A perfectly good thing that I picked apart

What once was pure is now a bleed in my heart

I wanna tell you that I miss you

But that I knew ‘I like you’ was too good to be true

So I’ll mourn the mornings spent with someone I once knew

But I won’t find that friend again, even in you

My heartstrings bent out of place

The second I took 6 weeks to replace

‘I won’t get over you’ could not have been more fake

When all you needed was the upper hand and an 18th birthday cake.