If I ever wake up written by Alan.s.Robinson

If I ever wake up and find myself still here

It may prove too much, too much for me to bear

To see those same, features everywhere

To see the sign that says, I am going, I am going nowhere

If I ever rebe4l, against my very nature

If I rise in violence, against the sense of failure

Who should I blame, when I have been the traitor

When cowardice admits, I never faced the test of faith by torture

When I ask myself, ask myself why, I was so afraid

What shall I say, say of my soul, if I wish it saved?

If I ever become, the shadow of my being

Will I recall this, as nothing but a bad dream

Will I laugh aloud, at the folly of that dreaming

And never admit, I killed myself when no one else was watching

If I ever forget, the pain that this has been

And find somehow, a way to face forgiving

All the soul has done, and all the body seem

Then let me sleep, and never waking not know what it means