it's not a phase (Explicit) - AxR

Lyrics by：Ethan Hart

Composed by：Ethan Hart

I'd turn back time & find some way to fix my complications

Mental block's apparent I'm afraid it might push you away

Devoid of lines to write bout feelings I was born & raised with

Every time I speak up you just throw it right back in my face

I know you can't control it

I know it's not a phase

I could tell you to face it

But that's way too easy to say

Stages I ain't performing

Declining every day

Every time I try to help you

Nothing ever seems to change

And it's like every time I reach out & I tell you how I feel about it

Nothing ever seems to even make it to your brain & when december closes out

It's like you once was an illusion founded

Deep inside a body inhabited by a broken dream

Why'd this have to happen to you I would be afraid

It's just every time you show love I don't know how to appreciate

Wish I could close my open arms around you make everything feel okay

Everything I've done's doing nothing but worsening the pain

Can't afford to miss your calls cause I can't get ahold of you

Otherwise and I know you like to talk to make emotions straight

Other guys didn't hold your hand & dropped you in your lowest stage

I replied in minutes I'll be here when things are not okay

It's like you felt that high and then you'd fall back low

I felt your touch one night it made me drop my hoes

Your demons in disguise I wanna slaughter those

It never felt so nice although it hurts my soul

And when I don't receive a text from you I'm always worried sick

Cause I know you been unstable & I don't know if you'll stick around

You almost took your life once you told me & ever since

I promised I would try to be one more reason for you to live

Buts it's like every time I reach out & I tell you how I feel about it

Nothing ever seems to even make it to your brain & when december closes out

It's like you once was an illusion founded

Deep inside a body inhabited by a broken dream

Why'd this have to happen to you I would be afraid

It's just every time you show love I don't know how to appreciate

Wish I could close my arms around you make everything feel okay

Everything I've done's doing nothing but worsening the pain

I know that every time I reach out and I tell you how I feel about it

Nothing I can do can ever fix what's in your brain

Hope when february's out that I can finally feel my arms around you

Happier than ever when I feel your touch again

Tell me why'd this have to happen to you

I know you're god damn afraid & every time

You show love I know it's right to reciprocate

Tenfold when though

Whenever you're feeling safe

Everything I want is for you to find a way through the pain

And when I tell you I love you it means I mean that

When you make it home I'll be here for you the same

I guess this journey's so much better than a relapse

I hope a day comes when you're happy & free