I feel so numb dunno what to do
Wondering what it is to make me feel so blue
The path of love is a harsh route
Im in pain and agony but cant scream or shout
They say time heals but its been so long
And Im still replaying where it all went wrong
I tell myself Ive moved on but its all a lie
Cuz I still hear her voice in the dead of night
Its like her signature saying Fuck being sober
I guess you have to understand it until youre older
Cuz until then god will give you the closure
Seeing you a lot of pressure on your shoulder
But who to be there with you man you are the joker
And our bond faded away last December
Man do you remember
The time that you went to the US I wrote you my first song called All feelings
Did you know man I wrote that in my bed while crying staring at the ceiling
Thinking that you wont ever leave me and go but its all in my head just pretending
Dont know what to do dont know what to think and hopping that god can give me the healing
Just like All feelings I still wrote you 14 letters that I didnt send them out
Laying gaining dust in the box while have so much to scream and to shout
But I am all alone can somebody tell me how
To avoid having the pain and stay sober now
Its hard to stay sober when the hurt runs deep
Its hard to stay alive when you cant find sleep
Fighting every shadow tryna see the light
But the war inside me dont end at night
Its hard to stay sober its hard to survive
Fighting these demons just to stay alive
The scars tell a story the pains my guide
Im walking through the fire with nothing to hide
Its hard to stay sober when the hurt runs deep
Its hard to stay alive when you cant find sleep
Fighting every shadow tryna see the light
But the war inside me dont end at night
Its hard to stay sober its hard to survive
Fighting these demons just to stay alive
The scars tell a story the pains my guide
Im walking through the fire with nothing to hide
I want to fall yeah I want to hide
But whos gon catch me whos on my side
The skys so close but it feels so far
Chasing dreams that shatter like a broken star
Every word you said it cuts so deep
Promises you made that you couldnt keep
Your loves a mask just a clever disguise
I see the truth now its in your eyes
The echoes of your lies they haunt my mind
But Im done with the chains I wont stay confined
The blue skys calling yeah its my turn
Let the bridges burn while the tables turn
I gave you my heart you tore it apart
But now Im building something from the broken shards
No more shadows no more disguise
This time Im soaring where the truth lies
Im sinking deep yeah caught in the tide
The waves crash hard but Im dead inside
Want to fall want to hide let the darkness collide
But whos gon be there when the storm subsides
You said forever but forevers a joke
Every promise you made just went up in smoke
I gave my all now my hearts on trial
Guess your love was just another denial
You played your part like a master of schemes
Turned my reality into shattered dreams
Now Im walking solo through this battlefield
But these scars on my heart are the wounds I wield
Tried to climb but you pulled me down
Now Im standing alone in this broken town
You taught me pain but I learned to fight
In the shadow of lies Im chasing the light
Its hard to stay sober when the hurt runs deep
Its hard to stay alive when you cant find sleep
Fighting every shadow tryna see the light
But the war inside me dont end at night
Its hard to stay sober its hard to survive
Fighting these demons just to stay alive
The scars tell a story the pains my guide
Im walking through the fire with nothing to hide
Its hard to stay sober when the hurt runs deep
Its hard to stay alive when you cant find sleep
Fighting every shadow tryna see the light
But the war inside me dont end at night
Its hard to stay sober its hard to survive
Fighting these demons just to stay alive
The scars tell a story the pains my guide
Im walking through the fire with nothing to hide
