it's not a phase (Explicit) - AxR Lyrics by：Ethan Hart Composed by：Ethan Hart I'd turn back time & find some way to fix my complications Mental block's apparent I'm afraid it might push you away Devoid of lines to write bout feelings I was born & raised with Every time I speak up you just throw it right back in my face I know you can't control it I know it's not a phase I could tell you to face it But that's way too easy to say Stages I ain't performing Declining every day Every time I try to help you Nothing ever seems to change And it's like every time I reach out & I tell you how I feel about it Nothing ever seems to even make it to your brain & when december closes out It's like you once was an illusion founded Deep inside a body inhabited by a broken dream Why'd this have to happen to you I would be afraid It's just every time you show love I don't know how to appreciate Wish I could close my open arms around you make everything feel okay Everything I've done's doing nothing but worsening the pain Can't afford to miss your calls cause I can't get ahold of you Otherwise and I know you like to talk to make emotions straight Other guys didn't hold your hand & dropped you in your lowest stage I replied in minutes I'll be here when things are not okay It's like you felt that high and then you'd fall back low I felt your touch one night it made me drop my hoes Your demons in disguise I wanna slaughter those It never felt so nice although it hurts my soul And when I don't receive a text from you I'm always worried sick Cause I know you been unstable & I don't know if you'll stick around You almost took your life once you told me & ever since I promised I would try to be one more reason for you to live Buts it's like every time I reach out & I tell you how I feel about it Nothing ever seems to even make it to your brain & when december closes out It's like you once was an illusion founded Deep inside a body inhabited by a broken dream Why'd this have to happen to you I would be afraid It's just every time you show love I don't know how to appreciate Wish I could close my arms around you make everything feel okay Everything I've done's doing nothing but worsening the pain I know that every time I reach out and I tell you how I feel about it Nothing I can do can ever fix what's in your brain Hope when february's out that I can finally feel my arms around you Happier than ever when I feel your touch again Tell me why'd this have to happen to you I know you're god damn afraid & every time You show love I know it's right to reciprocate Tenfold when though Whenever you're feeling safe Everything I want is for you to find a way through the pain And when I tell you I love you it means I mean that When you make it home I'll be here for you the same I guess this journey's so much better than a relapse I hope a day comes when you're happy & free