[VERSE 1 Born on a minefield, raised in a rough world A life like a chess game, an always-play-it-tough-girl The kind of nothing-she-can-ever-do-will-be-enough-girl The Do-It-yourself, rely-on-nobody-else-type Cause people can't handle, let alone understand why It gets tense while They come close, approaching my defense line Trying to see if you're the good or the bad guy But then defaulting into begging, bargain and fight But you never fought back and I Am losing my disguise [CHORUS Call me out on my bullshit Do you see how hard I try? Try to unwrap everything Hiding behind a smile No anger covers up the pain I got a long way to go Tell me you see how hard I try [VERSE 2 I thought my head was safe The outside world a maze But sprialling away Right into outer space But you see through the craze The mask above the face And without even trying put me back into my place You're breaking the illusions Pressing where it hurts Show me where the rug is bulking And my stories sound absurd A hopeful hunt for treasures as you're digging through my dirt The voices in my head angels' choirs in your world Softening up as I go harder Let my bullets pass through you like water [CHORUS [BRIDGE And it's so hard to bear the thought someone could see me from up close Tell me what's your diagnosis, I don't really want to know Scared you will leave me as the wounds begin to show But for now it seems you can love it even more [CHORUS